These days people are so open about publishing their assets on the net. Is the corporate governance start to have influence on the individuals as well. Wonder if i should start publishing my assets, pay, insurance and account balances.

'Yes, I'm committing suicide and I've my reasons. Delete this email immediately if you're not interested or do not care about me at all.'

He then went on to say that he had had enough of his 'miserable life', having lived most of it 'in sorrow and suffering'.

'I live in a not normal family. My mother likes to control everything in my life (and also my brother and father),' he wrote.

'But even now, she still treats me as a child and somehow that irritates me.'

The writer described his father as a 'very kind person' who never complained or blamed others although their financial situation was not good.

'But too bad my mother often pressurises him, which often causes quarrel between them,' he wrote.

'Do you know how it feels to watch your own family shouting at each other almost every day when you were still a child?'

The writer said that his 'unstable emotion' could have been formed because of this.

He also had this to say about his brother: 'Sometimes he's reliable, but sometimes he's also very unreliable, especially if he got something to do for himself.'

The writer then went on about his childhood, which he described as 'a bad time'.

He said that when he was young, he cried a lot because of his family, friends and teachers.

But after the age of 16, he became 'strong and cold'.

'I never shed tears anymore, to any pitiful situation or event,' he said.

'Maybe this is because I just don't have anymore tears for me to shed for other people. I even doubt I will cry if my mom or dad suddenly passes away.'

The writer said that his life became much more 'difficult and complicated' after he entered university.

He said: 'I have tried to struggle but it seems that my mental is not strong enough to continue...'

The writer ended the note by saying: 'What have I done in my life? Basically nothing but repetition.'

The writer did not sign off on the document.

No e-mail

Senior Staff Sgt Ng told the court that he could not determine if the text file was written as an e-mail.

He had checked the e-mail folder in Mr Widjaja's laptop and could not find it in the 'sent' or 'draft' folders.

Senior Staff Sgt Ng also said that the file had not been changed since it was created.

Mr Widjaja, an Indonesian, has a brother, William, 24, who works as an IT consultant.

His parents and brother, who had been attending the inquiry faithfully since it began last month, were not in court yesterday.

His father, who works in a trading firm, had to return to Jakarta on Thursday because of work commitments. His brother had to attend a meeting and could not take leave from work to come this time.

His mother, a housewife, felt uneasy about remaining here without them and chose to fly off with her husband.

The inquiry continues next Wednesday.

IN THE FILE...

MOTHER
'My mother likes to control everything in my life.'

FATHER
'A very kind person... too bad my mother often pressurises him.'

BROTHER
'Sometimes he's reliable, but sometimes he's also very unreliable.'

so good..

A friend wrote this. I find it nice.

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It started at a coffee shop, where we sat. it ended at a bus stop, where we stood. the exact spot, i will live to tell. in between was 1 year and 10 months. in between there was walking, running and chasing. no matter how or what, our pace was always somewhat different. i was always faster. the gap got wider and wider...

i ran back, you walked faster. we met at a point again. that was the 8th month, the 1st time the gap got too wide. soon, such pacing back and forth became a enduring chase...the harder we tried to meet at a point, the more lost we got. we are all over. we are unrecoverable. 

it is 3 months later now, 3 months after the 1 year and 10 months. soon it will become 6 months later, then 9, then 12, then 15...these numbers are time. i need time. time to patch, time to internalize.

only when i'm ready, i will hold my hands out this time to keep (whoever you maybe) by my side. if i need years to get ready, i will. if i can never learn, i'd rather be alone. if you never appear, then maybe next life. i don't want another ex...
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HE HAS a degenerative disease that doctors said would not let him live past the age of 17.

Weighing only 30kg, he cannot dress, bathe or feed himself, and needs a machine to help him breathe.

But Kevin Lee, now 20, is a determined young man.

Not only will he graduate on Tuesday with a diploma in Internet and multimedia development, he has already been working from home as a games moderator for a software company, earning $800 a month.

He works about six hours a day.

His inspiration? His mother, Madam Tay Et, who refuses to let her son's dreams fade away.

Recognising the double act, Temasek Polytechnic (TP) will have both mother and son on the stage to receive his diploma.

Madam Tay, 52, is no stranger to TP as she has been taking her son to his classes for the past three years.

She helped him turn the pages of his books during lessons and also carried him from his wheelchair to the lecture hall.

Said Kevin on the role his mother played in his success: 'I couldn't have done it without her. She has been by my side all my life.'

He was diagnosed with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (DMD) at the age of 10.

DMD is a severe form of muscular dystrophy characterised by rapid muscle degeneration, eventually leading to loss of movement and death.

At the time, the family was told that he would not have many more years to live.

While she was heartbroken when she first heard the news, Madam Tay vowed to help her son fulfil his dreams.

'I wanted him to achieve as much as he can, despite his handicap,' she said in Mandarin, through a translator.

She is with him all the time. At night, she sleeps beside him and shifts his position several times to ensure he doesn't choke on his saliva.

Joker

Despite his condition, Kevin still finds ways to make his mother laugh. A teary Madam Tay said: 'He is a real joker. I've put on some weight recently. So he tells me, 'Ma, you don't need to buy a hula hoop, you have one on your tummy!' '

She quit her $1,000-a-month job at a manufacturing plant when Kevin was diagnosed with the disease.

Her daughter Lee Pei Yi, 15, is in Secondary 3. Her husband Lee Siew Kan, 53, works as a salesman to support the family.

Said lecturer N Vijayan of Madam Tay's commitment: 'She's never far away from him. Even during tutorials, she might walk out for a while, but she will come in and check on him always.'

Regarding Kevin's job at AsiaSoft Online's Playpark forum, she said: 'I have to watch him on the computer and make sure he is okay and doesn't strain himself.'

Madam Tay readily acknowledges the part played by TP in helping Kevin.

He was given extra time to complete assessments. He was also provided with a room and bed in the sick bay area to rest between classes as he would get tired easily during the day.

Since he has been unable to write for the past two years, the polytechnic arranged for a writer to write down Kevin's dictated answers during examinations.

As a Mother's Day present, he spent $500 on a Nintendo Wii game console for her.

Said Kevin: 'I just want to make her happy - she has done so much for me.'

Over the past two years, his condition has deteriorated considerably.

Said Madam Tay: 'Now he has only milk for breakfast. He has biscuits for a snack. He can't swallow anymore. He only has dinner.'

He uses the Bipap - bi-level positive airway pressure - a device that helps him breathe.

Despite the banter, one can sense her fear.

Most who suffer from DMD do not live beyond early adulthood.

She said: 'I keep myself busy so I don't think of what is going to happen to him.'

She added: 'He tells me to spend more time with my daughter as he is worried I pay too much attention to him.

'He also tells me not to be too sad when he goes.'

But now they are planning his 21st birthday in July.

'He wants a big celebration with all his friends and that's what I'm going to give him,' Madam Tay said, wiping away tears.

it is already wicked enough  to wish someone dead but on his birthday, it's too much.

so much and yet so little.. zip. serene.